She did what??............

So my life is always a large pendulum swing of randomity... good and ....unusual....

Today is no different. I started off the day starting to get a bit emotional about this birthday..... 40... FOURTY for kripsy christs sake.... shit.. where has the time gone...

I'm not where I need to be in my life for this age.. I VETO THE FOUR OH!!

Then friends talked me down a bit...(I wasn't high up on that ledge..just trying to grasp it, really) and then alot of clients and friends cancelled and postponed meetings,drinks, get togethers. I was like- what IS this? Cancel week?

It's not like I've had huge plans for this anyway.... I haven't enough to show for these years to make it worth a huge bash.....

then this evening I got amazing news..... I feel very Steel Magnolias right now.

(Truvy's West - "I'm a chain!!")
Well, not actually a chain.. but my own stand alone location- a real store front on Vineland!!! For LESS rent than where I am now!!! (ca-CHING!)With two hair stylists.

This is a little bit scary, a little bit exciting, and a little bit good gods what are we doing?

I don't have a crackling fire,or a warm someone to curl up next to.... but this year I have a gorgeous apartment, 3 wonderful critters that time share my lap,one great big spastic love bug that's bonded to like his Momma was, and good friends around me with a promising career.

After all the heartache and hard things I've been through.....it looks like I'm finally coming out of that and moving into some time that's all Mine.

Time to head into that bright new year....